**Welcome to our family blog. I look forward to sharing glimpses into our lives with letters to my boys.**
Dear Lee,
Well we've done it…we have our family. I cannot believe the little lives we have created. I know with the hustle and bustle of having a toddler and a newborn there has not been much time to say thank you, to reflect on the amazing life we have, to pause for us. You are a wonderful husband, father, provider, and caregiver. You are my best friend and I am beyond lucky you are mine. I love our life. I love our sons. I love you.
Always,
Candace
Dear Harrison,
It has been 5 days since Atticus's arrival into our lives. You met on his second day of life. You came to the hospital dressed in your Superman tee looking so handsome. You walked into my room all alone holding a single yellow rose. You had a smile on your face and brought it over to me saying "flower" Then I think it hit you something was different about me. Your Dad picked you up to see me and you did not want to. I did cry as I hoped you would be happy to see me but I know it was a different place and I was not myself. Then you wanted to leave. We then welcomed into the room Grand, Glenn, Philip, Ian and Averie and soon you were yourself. You checked out your new brother and gave me a kiss and sat with me a few different times. We took a walk around the unit and I felt so much better about your visit.
We are home now and it is going to be an adjustment for you. The hardest part of this is not being able to care for you and pick you up. Everyday is different and you have had some very sweet moments with Atticus. You helped me feed him the first night. You came into his room to sit next to me the first morning. You like to touch his hands, nose, and eyes. You peek in on him in his crib and watch when he is having a diaper change. Slowly your bond will grow and it is comforting to know that neither of your will have a memory that does not include the other.
I love you my sweet boy. You are changing so much everyday. Your vocabulary is increasing. You love to say "waTer", dirt, oh-no, basketball, outside, horse (which sounds like b-ouse) You say NO more than anything which I am not a fan of but you are testing the boundaries and this is part of growing up.
Dear Atticus,
Welcome to the world my little bird! You are such a dreamy baby. I am smitten as I knew would happen but I had to hold you in my arms before that love was real. We have had some great time just you and I. We snuggled in my hospital bed just listening to each other breathe. We danced watching the sunset and I sang to you. You are the best snuggler. You fit perfectly into that crook in my neck. You were born to fit there. You were born to take a piece of my heart that was reserved just for you.
Since being home we are just getting into our routine. You are increasing your intake of formula everyday and sleeping wonderfully. Adjustments will continue to happen and transitions are apart of this ride but I am trying to take in every moment I can. You are my last baby and I never want to forget what this feels like. I am not a past dweller and the present and future is my main focus. Seeing you and Harrison having an amazing life is most important but as your Momma I want to imprint my mind with these first precious memories. Thank you for blessing our lives. I am so over the moon that we are now a family of four. Exactly as it is supposed to be. Me and my boys.
Love,
Your Momma
**More from Atticus's birth and Harrison and Atticus's meeting can be found here.**
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